I Am Who I Am

Have you ever felt as though once you reached college, you had to pretend as though you were someone else? You know the person who’s mature, sophisticated, has their life all together, flashy, blah blah blah, all that fun stuff. Well I’ll be honest with you, I’m far from that. I’m a goofball, I laugh at every little thing, I suffer from depression, I fail classes and tests. I do things that bring me pleasure. That’s. just. ME.

Growing up I felt as though I had to pretend and hide who I really was. I mean who becomes friends with someone who literally fights with voices in her head? Who would rather sit alone in a dark room, than be with a group of people? Who feels like utter crap? You wouldn’t right? Let me guess, it’s probably because, I don’t fit your “standards” of the “ideal “person. I mean I don’t have perfect grades, I’m not an extrovert, I don’t see the joy i-am-who-i-amin things like others might see, and say “what’s wrong with you”, don’t you have a heart.?” Welp guess I don’t.

I DON’T CARE ABOUT YOUR OPINIONS OF ME!! I am who I am. I can’t live for you and forget all about me. Judge me as much as you want, but I’ve come to accept who I am, as an amazing human being.

You have to learn to live for today, and live for you. Yes, you. Don’t let the words of others dictate who you are as a person. Do what will make you happy, do things that make you lay in bed and think, ” I don’t see anything wrong with me”. Learn to accept yourself and don’t invite anyone in your life, that can’t accept you for you.

Shoot –  I’m still learning how to love me wholeheartedly. But guess what? Once you start doing that, it’ll be hard to ever turn back. Remember to live in love, peace, and happiness.  I’ll see you guys next time, being the best you, you can be.


anastasiaAnastasia W.
Class of 2018
Major: English
Minor: Psychology
Blog Theme: Patience, Love & Acceptance

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Learning to Let Go

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     There was this guy I met my freshman year, I won’t say any names. He was really goofy and if you couldn’t tell I am the same way. He was really interesting to me because I like guys who are a puzzle. Maybe that’s me just being weird, but hey I don’t mind a challenge.  My friends called him an asshole and I can’t lie he was. He didn’t seem to respect females but I am not one to judge. I don’t know what about him caught my attention because, at the time I was only into his friend. But for some reason he spoke first, and all of a sudden I was into him. Continue reading “Picking flower Petals: Does he like me? Does he not?”

No Sugarcoating the Pain of Persistence

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“Trouble Don’t Last Always”

So here we are about to face finals week then off for Christmas break. I don’t know about you, but I’m sure as hell-happy this semester is over. We have faced a lot of challenges together. Though I may not have known your circumstances, I have felt comfortable enough to share my stories with you all. Just to be able to help someone who might be going through the same thing as me is motivating.  You guys inspired me to open up and be my true self, Without you, I wouldn’t have kept it together this semester. I know there are many of us who have walked past someone, and didn’t know the story behind that persons smile; why there seems to be so much sadness behind their eyes,  even why they seemed so closed off from the world. I am here to tell you not to be afraid to smile. Smile at someone and ask them how their day is going? Share a positive energy even if you’re not feeling so up. That one compliant or cheerful word, could brighten someone’s day. Continue reading ““Trouble Don’t Last Always””