As the first week back at school came to an end, many students across the UAlbany campus were finally settling back into their familiar routines. Unfortunately, I was not not one of those students. Last semester I spent a majority of my blogs giving advice and sharing stories of my experiences at college, but I want to go in a little bit of a different direction this semester. I am not exactly sure what direction to go in yet but what I am hoping for is to make this blog as personal as possible. A front row view of the inner mind of a stressed out, overworked, college student.
I recently went through one of the hardest, most tragic, and most heartbreaking period of time in my life so far, and it has changed my outlook on so many aspects of life. Losing one of my best friends suddenly over winter break and the realization that nothing in life is certain, has finally shattered any of the remaining innocence left in me. “Bad things happen to good people” is now more than just a saying to me. You hear stories of terrible tragedies and your heart goes out to the people experiencing the heart break but you don’t fully understand that it can happen to you, that you could be the one asking why something so terrible has to happen, until it happens to you. Life is an oxymoron, both cruel and beautiful in many ways. And so at a period of time where I am so angry and so sad, I try my hardest for find the good in these series of event in my life. And so I will leave you with a quote that has helped me see the world as it really is:
Happiness is a journey, not a destination. for a long time it seemed to me that life was about to begin – real life. but there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. at last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life. this perspective has helped me to see there is no way to happiness. happiness is the way. so treasure every moment you have and remember that time waits for no one.” -Alfred D. Souza