Grieving While Pursuing Your Dreams

This is not an easy subject to talk about, but it is a subject that I think people just need to hear about sometimes to know that they are not alone. I lost my grandmother to Alzheimer’s just this past summer and, believe me, it is still a day to day struggle. I have been experiencing the holidays without her and it still bothers me that she will never see me graduate. I went through a lot to maintain my grades and keep up a steady performance but I did it, and I am glad I did.

Anxiety is Like…

 

“If you must know, this is what I’m scared of.  I’m scared that everyone else is more who they are than I am who I am.  I think everyone else just looks at the things they feel or think or say,

“Of course this is what I feel or think, this is who I am.

But I am never sure of what I feel or think…”.

 

This is an excerpt from a piece called, “The Anxiety Inherent in the Air” in a poetry and photography collection entitled “I Wrote This For You and Only for You”.

When I stumbled across this poem earlier on in the semester, I remember a feeling of “awe” washed  over me.   I had never read anything in all my life that I felt related to me in that way on a personal level.  I already knew I was nervous, I already knew I was anxious and even terribly indecisive (another fun fact for those of you who don’t already know me), but I think having someone else put it into words, and reading those words right in front of me…made a huge difference.

Pulled Back to Move Forward

My name is Kerry DeBruce and I get it. As a senior, I get it. Even as just a person going through the motions in this thing we call life, I get it. It’s hard to move on, trust me.

It was hard to move on when I realized my friendship with my suitemate from freshmen year will never be the same. It was hard to move on when I found out my old manager from back home passed away. It was hard to move on when I didn’t get the job position I wanted for post-graduation. It was even harder to move on when my dad passed away.